Life without a therapist, never being able to connect with someone I could communicate my thoughts with was tough, but I feel like Ive leaped some great hurdles in just a few short weeks. Its a bummer to think that I could have had growth sooner, emotionally, however having spent my whole life surrounded by self help, believing in it when it has never allowed me to grow was tough, but the first thing I needed to learn was speech. Truth, conveying my observations and controlling my voice and mind so that I could speak objectively and about every observation. This comes from balancing chakras, meditation, and making every effort to be a good life, a positive individual, express care, and take interest in others.
I was always a quiet person, thought my thoughts didnt matter, could be outgoing without ever making a friend. Im still learning how to connect with people, but trusting people is hard. Learning to trust people without judging them, expressing boundaries, being the person I would want my partner to be and expressing appropriate emotions and caring responses – it sometimes really hurts me to have to be so nice, but in all contexts, Ive been nice to the extent that I have nothing left, just now becoming something with something to offer again to friends, without being codependent, demanding, or a complainer. I do still have issues communicating and am discovering problems I have that need resolution and am also learning that I dont always have to be a ham, a turkey, or a chicken or give up beef.
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