cannot make a relationship interesting or communcative, feels lonely, no intimacy, if Im going to be lonely would almost like to be alone, I never knew that, what are the odds Id have such issues being the leftover, its the voices and exclusions and the karma of avoiding that compile. Life alone might be easier

fewer hard lessons, peace

I am thinking purely for the convenience and delight of others, for their redemption, at great cost to me

Its like an echo, repeating, over and over through thier speech, rapid panicking echoing my own panic and confusion

I want to be friendly and gregarious

happy and generous

A sneeze for me. Quiet at my desk sneezy

Moon Pie
Parmesan crust, olive oil base, spinach, portabella
mushrooms, feta, and artichoke hearts
M14.99/L18.99

Magic Dragon
Pesto base, coconut crust, roma tomatoes, red
onions, curried chicken, sweet chili sauce drizzle
M15.99/L19.99

Too many good food to list at this pizza joint. https://www.ashevillebrewing.com/location/downtown/

Plans: monday: drive and publix and golden wok, weaverville for sushi and egg drop soup. Sit in spa with bottle of cold champagne and enjoy the residence
tuesday: st pattys day in Asheville. Taking an uber to jackofthewoods for trout beiniet and rabbit stew, cold beer and later on heading to the thirsty monk for some “holy water” and some tasty brews
wednesday: packing picnic lunch and heading to the blue ridge parkway, where we will find some waterfalls and a nice scenic overlook to have a romantic picnic, back to the spa with a lot of champagne to drink and a log on the fire
thursday: more of the blue ridge parkway, more picnic stuff, then to bouchays for steak tartare and then elaines dueling piano bar. after that, more time in the spa with our 11th bottle of champagne and our last night in the house.

Just getting the things I need so I can live a life of excess and luxury for four days in barnardsville and asheville north carolina. Im excited about that. Plan on having cheese plates and steak tartar, funky beers at the thirsty monk and wild trips through the mountains to see waterfalls and fun things like that.

I have some film for my new camera that I bought just for the trip.Even some black and white film. Super prepared!

Paul says he would be delighted to do the driving, as I am anxious about unfamiliar roads and mountain curves. I just want to trust my judgement but the driving would make me anxious.

We are planning to buy four bottles of champagne, some single beers, and I do plan on getting a small bottle of something nice for the trip.